Written September 2, 2011…
Since many of you are praying for and with us and have been wondering how things have been going since my last note, I wanted to give a quick update on our little peanut.
I’m 10 1/2 weeks along and had an appointment with my doctor this past Tuesday. Adam and I were both a little nervous about going back to the same office as we weren’t sure what emotions we’d feel, but God was so good in giving us a peace and calm. My doctor and nurses have been and continue to be so thorough, so empathetic. Because we’re still not exactly sure what caused our last baby to die, they are treating this pregnancy differently than my previous two, which in a way was a huge relief to me. Though I was really hoping they’d do an early ultrasound, when it was quickly scheduled that day, my mind went a thousand directions. I was literally shaking. I tried to blame it on the huge glass of cold water they gave me to chug, but Adam knew better than that. My last ultrasound involved being alone with the technicians a silent room with the screen turned away from me, followed by nightmarish news. Fear and nervousness were again taking over. We called our parents. I sent a quick text to a friend. We went outside to get some sun and calm our nerves and pray. And I stopped shaking. 😉
Adam wasn’t allowed to come into the room until the tech could get all of the information she needed. Because there was a student in with the technician, she was quietly explaining what was coming up on the screen that was again turned away from me. I heard her quietly say, “There’s the heart.” And I could finally breathe. After several minutes, Adam was allowed to come in and they let us see the tiny person God had been knitting together in my womb. That flashing light confirmed a heart beat…and that as of right then everything looked good.
My doctor scheduled an appointment for September 13th with a high risk pregnancy specialist who will talk further with us, run some more tests, and do another ultrasound to check more things out.
We’re extremely thankful and daily humbled by God’s unmerited favor, but still battling intense fear from time to time. I’m most anxious about these next two months and would greatly appreciate your prayers. You can obviously pray for the health of our baby and the safety of my pregnancy, but more than that, please pray that I can daily trust and daily surrender my will to His.
Thank you for caring for our family and wanting to walk with us through this journey!
“You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.” – 2 Corinthians 1:11